A Thought to Remember
Tuesday, September 7, 2021
Monday, August 16, 2021
I Still Believe
People are imperfect
They're full of weaknesses
But they have their strengths too
Some just need to be discovered soon
Is it fair to leave just because of their imperfection?
No one is ever perfect right?
I still care about you
It's not easy for me to keep a distance still
People would say I'm wasting my time
But I've known you longer than other people do
And I still believe though
That there's still some spark
that can be reignited
Your words hurt me the deepest
But also, you're still growing up
I am still your frontal lobe,
am I?
Wednesday, August 11, 2021
It's a feeling that no one cares
Life's full of emotions
Sometimes, happy
Other times, angry,
Sad, puzzled,
And so many other.
Life is like a roller coaster
It's up and down and then up again
Together with emotions inside our hearts
Is it wrong to express how we feel?
Or should we just shove it in our hearts
And never let others know?
It's the feelings that make us human
To be understood
To be compromised
And to be tolerated
When people belittle it
it's killing us on the inside
as no one understands
the support that we needed
to heal
It's killing us inside
especially when the one we consider our loved ones
didn't care at all.
it turns us into robots
to have no feelings
to be heartless
to be expressionless
to be null and feel nothing.
Your attention shows that you care
Your compassion shows that you still have a heart
before it's too late
before you regret not doing it right.
Sunday, August 8, 2021
Snapped.
I know
This time is not like the previous fights we had
I think you had it all. For real
I can't stop thinking how things will be after this
And I don't think I'm actually ready to get done with it
Not to let you go, yet.
Was it wrong to point out an advice?
Was it really harsh to give a genuine suggestion?
I did not accuse you of committing
It's just all my predictions came to reality
One by one
At least I have predicted it to happen to you
And it actually did.
I'm losing myself because of you
Because you matter the most
I know it's wrong not to put myself first
But feelings, it's just uncontrollable desires to choose you over me
And I'm still weak to prioritise myself.
Maybe I'm being a little too much?
for loving too much
for caring too much
and for controlling too much?
Wednesday, September 2, 2020
Overwhelmed
It hurts
when you put so much expectations
but didn't get the same energy
as I thought as
it should be
It's draining
when you hope too much
that they'd have the same hope as you do
but I guess it's not even near, to you
It just didn't reciprocate
when only one side is striving
while the other is falling, or not moving
I know it's my fault
for being too attached
when perhaps,
you are not, to me
I know it's my mistake
for letting it to happen
that I'd lose control
over my own feelings.
I'm sorry
for being, me.
I'm still learning
to be better, me.
Saturday, August 15, 2020
What If I Love You So Much Over?
I love you more than just a friend,
I love you more than just a sister,
I wish I could love you like a lover,
but I know it's just too much over.
I wish I could love you more than that,
but it can only be an ungranted wish,
it's prohibited and will never come true.
I don't know how to describe that feeling though, but truly,
I do love you so much over.
But from what I know,
I just want to be your guardian, your protector, your saviour.
From harm, from bad decisions, from being with the wrong person.
But I know I just couldn't go beyond that limit,
just because I love you too much over.
Like the love from a mother to her daughter,
like the love from a sister to her younger sibs,
Know no one would ever prayed for badness, only goodness.
Nothing but the best for the one, truly beloved.