it is still a journey.

perhaps
it's just so hard to move on
to let it go and let it be forgotten
to learn from the past
and to live in the moment
and not being afraid to make mistakes

yes, my beginning was tough
but why must I suffer now?
why I keep on questioning those things now?
He has thrown me there so I will learn
but have I learned anything?
it's been couple of years now
but now that I've  realised
how far have I gone through
without that essential element?

al-fahmu.

it's a wonder I survived though
while those around me
they fall back one by one.
didn't I ever think why I'm still here?

there is a reason why
yet to be discovered
and i'm still searching for it.

Rezeki Dhuha

Alkisah hari ini

Pagi tadi saya telah mendapat satu bungkusan Pos Laju dari seorang sahabat senior kenalan di UK dulu. Beliau menjual tudung labuh secara online dan kebetulan pula saya memang sedang tercari-cari tudung yang bersaiz labuh (takde la minat sangat tudung berfesyen-fesyen ni, tapi memandangkan tudung sedia ada yang agak labuh memang limited, jadinya memang tergoda la kan).

Bukak je bungkusan tu, tengah-tengah excited tengok tudung-tudung baru, tiba-tiba saya terperasan satu tudung ni. Rasenye tak de la pulak saya order tudung tu.. Terus saya buka facebook akak tu dan tengok balik album gambar tudung tu. Sah, akak tu tersilap hantar tudung.

Saya maklumkan yang akak tu dah tersalah hantar. Dia pun check balik stok dan berjanji akan hantar tudung yang saya pesan dalam masa terdekat.

dan........

tudung yang dia tersalah hantar tu, dia bagi free!!

Sape yang tak seronok kan dapat benda free, tudung baru kot.

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.

Moga kakakku dilimpahi rezeki yang bertambah-tambah.

Amin.

being a believer

you say you're a proud Muslim
but your act doesn't show one

you say you obey Allah
but the Quran is always left behind

you say you love His Messenger
but his story was never in your mind

you say you love peace and togetherness
yet why yourselves are not united, but divided

Islam teaches you to purify your deen
Islam teaches you to care for others
Islam teaches you to love God more than your own
Islam teaches you to never give up, but believe there's hope

there's hope for everyone
regardless the state you've been into.
He is always forgiving
and He will always love us
when no one else does.

peramah

"buat passport first time juga ke?"

Dia memulakan bicara. 

"oh, takdelah. renew passport je. first time ke?"

Tak jadi saya nak mula baca cerpen yang baru didownload ke smartphone semalam. Terus saja saya tutup apps itu, dan simpan smartphone ke dalam beg. Dan kami berborak panjang sementara menunggu giliran  masing-masing dipanggil ke kaunter. 

Siapa sangka 'strangers' seperti saya dan dia, begitu mudah berborak seperti sudah lama kenal. 

Benar, dengan adanya smartphones, tablets, social networks, dan macam-macam lagi, kita sebenarnya semakin jauh dari orang di sekeliling. walaupun kadang-kadang dia hanya duduk disebelah kita saja. Kita lebih selesa berhubung dengan orang lain di alam maya, yang realitinya mereka itu mungkin berada di zon masa yang berbeza dengan kita. 

yang dekat tapi jauh.

yang jauh tapi dekat. 

Teknologi membuatkan kita semakin lemah interpersonal skills, semakin kurang adab dan common sense nya.

Muhasabah.

Tiada guna jika kita 'peramah' di alam maya, tegur sana, komen sini dan segala macam, tapi di alam realitinya, kita diam membatu. tidak endah hal sekeliling. tiada tegur sapa. hilang dalam dunia sendiri. 

kita ni syok sendiri rupanya!

rezeki

Rezeki.

tiap orang punya rezeki berbeza

ada yang rezekinya cemerlang dalam pelajaran

ada orang rezekinya pada keluarganya yang bahagia

ada orang rezekinya pengalaman merantau ke sini sana

ada orang rezekinya pada setiap urusannya yang dipermudah

kadang-kala, rezeki juga adalah ujian buat hambaNya

tiada guna untuk iri hati pada yang punya rezeki

setiap dari kita punya rezeki masing-masing

nikmat manakah yang engkau dustakan?

persoalannya, bersyukurkah kita?

Muhasabah.

the hijab

people with the hijab
a sign of obedience
a symbol of piety

but wait
they're not angels
they're just people like us
just like you and me

they do make mistakes
just like other people do
so why do we stereotyped them?
why do we judged them
if they make mistakes?

sometimes i wonder
just because they're in the hijab
they can't commit any wrongdoings?

people always say
the hijab you wear symbolises your attitudes
that is true, nobody will deny
but, to shun people of what they have done wrong
is an unacceptable action

within those hijabs
there may be struggles
the struggles to keep them on
the struggles to practise the deen

these people in the hijab
they want to please their Creator
they want to live up the deen
and to be the best slave for their God

so for you, you, and you
your voice do not matter
as long it's according to His ways
nothing else matters.

The imperfection

The ugly truth is...

We can never be perfect.

The more we tried to improve
The greater the challenges would be

Maybe we're not desperate enough in our dua
Maybe we're not fully committed to change
Maybe we're just... take things for granted.

If only we knew
He's waiting for us
He is longing for our desperate duas
He's waiting to listen to all our nags

Yes, we can never be perfect
But we can be the best of our version
The one who pleases Allah
The one who keeps on trying
To improve for the better

Keep on trying
Never stop searching
Believe He will help us through
If we believe in ourselves
Keep the dua in our prayers
And may we steadfast in this path