she is like a sister i never had

few years back

i met her at her house when we stayed there the night before the winter gathering started at Waddow Hall the next day. got to know her briefly and that's all about it.

the next day, the same person was assigned to be my facilitator during the whole winter gathering. it was such a coincidence, but it somehow let us to know more about each other. the memory of it was the best experience for my whole three years of joining different winter gatherings in the UK. and there is no doubt about it.

I would say that although we don't meet that often, she has sparked a special spot deep down in my heart. why? because she has taught me about life, indirectly, and without her intention, i suppose.

there was one time during ccmb, a spring holiday gathering, she asked me to be the imam for fajr prayer. i trembled as i lead the prayer because it was my very first time to lead a prayer among my friends. i guess somehow that incident of 'this-responsibility-lies-on-you' has made me more confident ever since. in certain things.

during summer holiday in Malaysia, i stayed at her house for a night. she actually taught me how to cover my aurah from the non-mahrams while being indoors. and yes, that was also my first time i ever knew how it should be done. That was the first and the last time i went back to malaysia for summer holidays after i've been touched by the sweetness of tarbiyah in the UK. As a beginner to love what i believe in my religion, there's so much to change. so much that i need to improve on and that was one of the initial aspects i began to understand and gradually take into action.

now

it's been more than a year since we last met. even more than a year i haven't heard any news from her. now that i'm already back for good, i think it would be good to keep in touch again. i don't want to lose a special friend because this one whole year has been quite dull without any news from her. no poking in facebook, no sweet messages, nothing at all. 

p/s: if you're reading this (or somehow i will make you read this if i were able to reach you), i just want to let you know that i really miss you. well, most of us do. seriously.

tempoh adaptasi

minggu kedua penyesuaian diri
Alhamdulillah segalanya semakin baik
makin biasa menerima sistem disini

jika usrah  tak pernah tinggal di sana
bila disini berjinak-jinaklah kembali
jangan dibiarkan hati itu kosong
kembali diisi pengisian rohani

jika disana solat berjemaah tempat bertatih
disini rajinkan diri bina saf itu kembali
jangan dibiar terleka hiburan dan kerja
ajaklah mereka, kita bina biah solehah itu kembali
dua minggu tempoh adaptasi
kini masa untuk kembali

saf

dalam solat berjemaah
kesatuan ertinya merapat-rapatkan saf
bukan sejadah aku, kawasan aku
sejadah kau, kawasan kau

bukan mengambil kira
kau anak kecil
tak boleh duduk di saf hadapan
perlu duduk di saf belakang

tiada yang utama melainkan imam
tiada yang lemah melainkan yang uzur
selainnya sama disisi Allah
hanya taqwa yang membezakan

manakan umat bersatu
jika saf-safnya masih terlopong?

komitmen

komitmen

pada diri 

pada amal

pada keluarga 

pada masyarakat

betapa sukarkan untuk berlaku adil

apatah lagi untuk mementingkan yang lebih penting

semoga Allah kurniakan kekuatan 

untuk memilih yang paling aula

dan bersabar dengan yang tidak terpilih

sebab dah terbiasa

sebab dah terbiasa
kadang yang adat
melebihi syariat

sebab dah terbiasa
yang betul tampak asing
yang salah pun nampak betul

sebab dah terbiasa
sukar untuk betulkan yang biasa
susah untuk biasakan yang betul

peringatan pada diri
perlu kuat teguhkan prinsip
jangan mudah larut dengan biasa-biasa ni
walau kadang terpaksa melawan arus

anak-anak itu

hidup kita tidak berlegar hanya mengenai kita

ada hak-hak terhadap makhluk lain

yang tersembunyi dalam nikmat kesenangan 

yang Allah kurniakan kepada kita

gunakan kelebihan yang ada

berceritalah pada anak-anak itu

ajarkanlah mereka hingga mereka mampu melangkah

kasihi mereka hingga mereka yakin untuk berlari mengejar impian

mereka tiada ayah

mereka tiada ibu

hanya pada kita

mereka menumpang kasih

p/s: selesai malam pertama membantu anak-anak ini menyiapkan kerja sekolah. tersentuh dengan kesungguhan untuk belajar mereka yang meminta agar diajarkan 1 topik malam esok. 

segar

air paip

anggota wudhu'

cuaca panas

anda faham perasaan itu?

"Maka yang mana satu diantara nikmat-nikmat Tuhan kamu,
yang kamu hendak dustakan?"

(55:13)

mari muhasabah diri, 

berapa ramai diantara kita
 yang istiqamah menjaga diri
agar sentiasa berwudhu'?