i do love you. but...

i do love you
as a friend
one of the closest
to be precise

but

there's something that
may hinder me
from loving you inside out

you are my friend
but
once you've lost my faith
its always hard for me to start over

we are like a pair of shoes
but can never reach the same path all way long
we are like a pair of scissors
but always hurting one's in silent

you've once neglected me
pushed me aside
like i'm not important
from the start

to love you make me afraid
to be close with you make me hesitate
to be treated as what you've done
make me scared
to trust you whole-hearted

i am also human
have feeling and emotions
just like you
to be loved
to be treated nicely
but it's your choice

but for me
once you've lost my trust
it's always hard to start all over
i can love you again
but the love won't be the same...

won't be pure as the first love
i had for you

i'm sorry if i treat you bad
i guess i need some time
some peace that i can think straight
to put you in
one of my bestest friends

p/s: dugaan.. dugaan... persahabatan kadang2 lagi kompleks dari percintaan

i'm so not ready!

salam and hi

lets count.... today is 5th May... and my finals will start on 17th.. you do the maths... but i'm so not ready for it!

to be frank, there's a lot of aspects that i have not looked on yet.. as for LDS this afternoon, i'm so gonna flunked it if it is the real test, so damn much i have not covered yet... other subjects, all the same as well..

well,
good luck to all tesl students who will have their finals..
may all of us be able to fly~~~~
~aminn~

date with the director!

salam and hi~

haha... for those who read it, don't take it that seriously. kind a joke, but indeed, it happened.

flashback::::
this morning, me, piqa and ruhan tried to book a bus so that all of our fellow friends who have not settled their passport to go all together attacking Jabatan Imigresen Malaysia in Damansara. so, we went to the office and get those materials needed, get some photocopied documents and approval from our beloved tutor, mr thirrummurthy.

meanwhile, i phoned yuges to ask the officer there, whether can we book for our group, as she and ila and aliaa and munirah and alicia went there to get their new passport. however she said that we can only book once we are there...haish, weekends sure got many people lah!so, the bus-booking is still on.

unfortunately, i had to go and send the form by myself as ruhan and piqa have to attend their learning support class.

as i went there, the clerk inside asked me to meet dr sofi personally to get the approval immediately as we sent the application form quite late ( we need it THIS sunday).

so, wow..... i'd never been to dr sofi's place. plus, i WAS alone at the time. cuak... seram...and i rarely involved, or specifically, INTERACT with such high position people..ever since my primary school.. you can laugh at me if you want, but that's the fact of myself( i'm a shy shy girl laaa)..

at first he questioned me why must it be done during weekends, and not weekdays. i was sooooo cuak and went silent for a moment. then i said that we don't want to interrupt our PnP(pengajaran dan pembelajaran)as that will be a waste(konon2nye la) of time and so on..

finally, he signed and approved our application form (yeay to me for settling it with all the kegugupan and kegelisahan to speak in english with dr sofi)

all settled. such a relief that it is done within this period of time.
but still, that was my first time ever negotiated with dr sofi by myself... seram2..hey, i'm not a person who is outspoken and outstanding.. so that's me..

lets learn adjectives!

salam and hi


tense
a word that suits me now

pressured
when there's piles of burden behind my back

anxious
to wait for that important days to come

worried
for the worst scenario that might happen


p/s: can my current posts considered as poems?
i wonder why....

thank you...

thank you for everything
for being sincere
although it hurts deep inside

you've taught me to be tough
be ready for any consequences

to face the fate
that i choose to be

to be acceptance
although i'm struggle for another chance

i appreciate you
so do i hope for mine

and you will always
in my mind

no matter what...

T_T

p/s: courage is risks. so be prepared for it
although its hard to take, sooner or later i'll have to.

i need you!

salam and hi..

i need you
to stand until the end of time

i need you
to face whatever obstacles and difficulties

i need you
to pass with flying colours

i need you
for my wish to come true
not only in my dreams
but also in reality...


p/s: kerajinan... dimanakah kau??
meh la sini... exam da dekat cik kak oi...

I'M SORRY!

i'm sorry i was pissed
i'm sorry i didn't reply your message
i'm sorry i didn't take your call
i'm sorry i let you waited dumbly at the bus stop
i'm sorry i've pulled my faces upon you
i'm sorry i just ignored you there
i'm sorry for making you upset with me

and again, i'm sorry i've caused you trouble.

i have to admit
i was angry when i know you've gone
without a word
you left without let me know
you left half away without me
although i'm the one who ask you out