i'm not ready

salam..

tomorrow's the day.. and,

I"M NOT READY!!

my stances all messed up, my punches and kicks are worse as in not hard and 'kemas' enough, and sometimes i'm barely able to remember all the steps in poomsae, step sparring and self defense technique..

tomorrow master ben will fetch me and syin and syara and the other two from ipbmm. hopefully we'll be there on time and hopefully it will ends as soon as possible..

apart from that,
i'm so not ready to go kedah yet.. i haven't pack even a single shirt into my luggage, i haven't fully memorising my choral speaking text, and i am so not ready to go there yet.. and each time i heard the word 'dorms', spontaneously that reminds me of my experience in national service..

and


I AM TOTALLY NOT READY YET FOR MOCK EXAM

my habit is there, again.. well, it is always there since ever... the word of 'procrastination' has been part of me.. we're inseparable.. how am i gonna overcome this...

any idea?