a monologue

i was confused
long ago i refused
but now induced to the opposite?

i used to do it by force
with unwillingness
without feeling grateful
to be able to live until now

but now that i observed
they are doing it
and doing it wholehearted
so why shouldn't i?

i am also one of them
to be judged in the hereafter
to be good or the other

and now
within the time constrain
i shall think again
of what i've done before
and what should i do
later on
to be a better muslim

insya'allah